Breakfast at Tiffany's

I just finished watching an older Audrey Hepburn movie called Breakfast at Tiffany's and I'm not sure how I feel about it.

In many ways it kind of hit me where it hurt in a couple of different levels. If you click on this blog post title it will take you to the Wiki entry on the movie.

I did some song lyric searching and I turned up these lyrics on this movie. I removed the chorus and, well just read them for what they are worth:


You say that we've got nothing in common
No common ground to start from
And we're falling apart
You'll say the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us
But I know you just don't care
I see you - the only one who knew me
And now your eyes see through me
I guess I was wrong
So what now? It's plain to see we're over,
And I hate when things are over -
When so much is left undone
You say that we've got nothing in common
No common ground to start from
And we're falling apart
You'll say the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us
But I know you just don't care

Sometimes I feel like we're close to tying everything back up and then sometimes I don't. I'm just so lost.

We had that you can date other people discussion but I don't even want to consider it. If I dated someone else it would be like throwing in the towel. What would I do if she started dating someone else. She say's she'd tell me but do I really want to know?

Enough of the depressing melancholy shit.

On a lighter note I got an "official" offer letter at work today. Cool thing was a typo. I was offered a six figure salary. Holy shit what a typo! We'll after a backspace key it was back down to a reasonable five figure number.

I need the life adjustment. I need to be more "available" as a father and maybe if I'm lucky as a husband.

I hate this. I really do. I hate feeling this needy about anything. Where is my resilliancy? Where is my "intestinal fortitude"?

I need to sleep but I can't.


Posted by Jeff Estes just wishing I wasn't dying on the vine.