Been a damn minute - 2020 so far.
wow. I just went back an re-read everything I posted since 2004. It's 2020 now and a lot changes in sixteen years. I recently shared my blog with a friend so I felt compelled to check in on blogger (Glad to find that it's still here), and I was shocked looking back over the last sixteen years of those small snippets of my life that I blogged.
Back in 2004 I'd been on the job with ABC for only four short years and now it's 20 years since day 1 at my job and I'm still there but everything else is different.
My kids have grown up. My two oldest kids (#fakekids) have flown the coop and landed back at home temporarily. My youngest has become a legal adult and legally speaking I have no more children. I mean they are always going to be my kids but none of them are children anymore. SOOO much has happened between that first post and today.
We're in the middle of some World War Z shit right now with COVID19 and the world has been turned inside out and shaken a few times. I just checked a few sources and we have had over Six Hundred and Five Thousand deaths. That's dead not diagnosed and recovered but six feet down dead. Back in 2004 George W. Bush was president and Yeah! by Usher was the most popular song on the radio according to Billboard Charts. LOTR the Return of the King took Best Picture at the Oscars.
As of Today I've barely left my house much in the last four or five months. I think the Chinese had it right when they said May you live in uninteresting times. Times have been very interesting lately.
From a professional standpoint I'm in a really good place. The work that I do is respected and valued and I still enjoy saving the world one computer at a time. I've lost more friends to death than I care to admit to. I guess that as you get older you lose more and more friends to vagaries of life.
From a romantic perspective my life has improved in so far as that I got over being all hung up on the love a woman who wasn't ready to truly love me. I'm still chasing that white buffalo of real true love. I got real close to love (I mean danger close) in the last 14 years but like a super retard I found a way to mess that up so good job Estes. I honestly had mostly given up on romance. I mean don't get me wrong I'd get on an online dating app and take a stab at looking but outside of a few dates I never got further than just finding a reason to share a meal with someone.
Now that my kids are out of the house (at least emotionally) I guess it's time to buckle down, and lean into being "Middle Aged". What's a guy to do who's at the beginning of a mid life crisis? Buy a sportscar, a motorcyle, and date a girl half his age? That's the Hollywood expectation right? I guess that would work for a guy like Bradd Pitt but I'm more like Starlord in his pre-famous days. Dadbod and funny as hell but totally Friendzone material.
There is a lot I'd like to dive into like the death of my brother but I'm still not ready to tackle that one head on right now.
I have been looking for and found reasons to smile lately so life is on the serious uptick even in the midst of whole COVID thing.
I'm not committing to writing a daily or even weekly blog article like I used to but maybe I should. Facebook is not the happy space it used to be. It's turned into a pit of comment insanity and virtue signaling and I'm honestly sick of it but it's literally the "best" window into the world right now so it's hard to quit. If something better comes along I'd jump ship but the cesspool that is the internet would probably follow me so the new new thing would end up the same as the old old thing. I do spend more time on twitter but it's not much better and Instagram is almost worst since it's so picture driven. My life is not very photogenic. :)
Later.
Posted by Jeff Estes wishing you would subscribe to my blog and sponsor my lunch breaks.
Back in 2004 I'd been on the job with ABC for only four short years and now it's 20 years since day 1 at my job and I'm still there but everything else is different.
My kids have grown up. My two oldest kids (#fakekids) have flown the coop and landed back at home temporarily. My youngest has become a legal adult and legally speaking I have no more children. I mean they are always going to be my kids but none of them are children anymore. SOOO much has happened between that first post and today.
We're in the middle of some World War Z shit right now with COVID19 and the world has been turned inside out and shaken a few times. I just checked a few sources and we have had over Six Hundred and Five Thousand deaths. That's dead not diagnosed and recovered but six feet down dead. Back in 2004 George W. Bush was president and Yeah! by Usher was the most popular song on the radio according to Billboard Charts. LOTR the Return of the King took Best Picture at the Oscars.
As of Today I've barely left my house much in the last four or five months. I think the Chinese had it right when they said May you live in uninteresting times. Times have been very interesting lately.
From a professional standpoint I'm in a really good place. The work that I do is respected and valued and I still enjoy saving the world one computer at a time. I've lost more friends to death than I care to admit to. I guess that as you get older you lose more and more friends to vagaries of life.
From a romantic perspective my life has improved in so far as that I got over being all hung up on the love a woman who wasn't ready to truly love me. I'm still chasing that white buffalo of real true love. I got real close to love (I mean danger close) in the last 14 years but like a super retard I found a way to mess that up so good job Estes. I honestly had mostly given up on romance. I mean don't get me wrong I'd get on an online dating app and take a stab at looking but outside of a few dates I never got further than just finding a reason to share a meal with someone.
Now that my kids are out of the house (at least emotionally) I guess it's time to buckle down, and lean into being "Middle Aged". What's a guy to do who's at the beginning of a mid life crisis? Buy a sportscar, a motorcyle, and date a girl half his age? That's the Hollywood expectation right? I guess that would work for a guy like Bradd Pitt but I'm more like Starlord in his pre-famous days. Dadbod and funny as hell but totally Friendzone material.
There is a lot I'd like to dive into like the death of my brother but I'm still not ready to tackle that one head on right now.
I have been looking for and found reasons to smile lately so life is on the serious uptick even in the midst of whole COVID thing.
I'm not committing to writing a daily or even weekly blog article like I used to but maybe I should. Facebook is not the happy space it used to be. It's turned into a pit of comment insanity and virtue signaling and I'm honestly sick of it but it's literally the "best" window into the world right now so it's hard to quit. If something better comes along I'd jump ship but the cesspool that is the internet would probably follow me so the new new thing would end up the same as the old old thing. I do spend more time on twitter but it's not much better and Instagram is almost worst since it's so picture driven. My life is not very photogenic. :)
Later.
Posted by Jeff Estes wishing you would subscribe to my blog and sponsor my lunch breaks.
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